This Is 31
I'm not really sure what 31 means. When I collect the facts of my life and benchmark them against my age, I feel good about some things and less good about others. I've learned this is a trap, so I quickly move on to wasting my time in other ways.
I have high hopes for this year, like I've had high hopes for every year since I was 15 years old. Details about my dream life have been refined but have not evolved much since then.
Building my dream life would require me to take actions that challenge my self-concept and threaten my identity as a stable, conservative, predictable, successful person. There would indeed be times that I'd thrust Shivani and I into instability, I'd have to lean into adventurousness, my behaviour would contradict others' expectations, and I would need to grow comfortable with maybe never finding success being a creative entrepreneur. I need to learn how to tolerate a lot of discomfort to overcome all that.
This year, I'll put all the pieces into place to make it happen.